| when you live in a cookie cutter world even different is the same |
[Sep. 29th, 2008|11:48 am] |
GAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MONSTERS! lmao,
wow, what an insane bit of stuff that has been happening. I've decided to not go to hair school instead i will pay back some of my student loan and work full time, then next sept go to DAL finally! for the program i've been dreaming of all these years.
I'm loving my job and it's going really well I have to stop by today ( on my day off) to buy the items i need to create gifts for Dave, Rafe, Isaac and Sara on account of me being a drunken fool and also as house warming gifts since they all have new homes. It should be quite radical,
Also spending a lot of time with someone quite radical... can't wait till tuesday........ GAHHHH!
everybody hates you when you love rock and roll....
i don;t even make sense... i'm such a dingbat |
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| action figure of speech |
[Sep. 5th, 2008|02:34 am] |
So things in Halifax are on the up and up FIRST breakthrough: Sobey's NO MO, I'm working full time at fabricville now which is amazing and comes with a sweet discount and loads of free SHIT!
School in November means sweet hangouts until then and making mad cash, getting myself out of the world of shit i'm in!
YAY!! plus coleman is back which is way awesome and we are going to REPO!!!!!!!!!!!! at the film fest which makes my life, offically the best moment of my life thus far Sara calling me and telling me she was holding my ticket in her hand, when i didn't even know it was playing anywhere let alone somewhere i'd get to view it with my own eyes!
BAD THINGS: i keep drinking way too much upon my return to Halifax.... like black out drunk every time i go out somewhere..... I don't know if i'm drinking more or if Toronto has weaker drinks or what.... but either way I gotta figure this out and stop it... i bought pizza for someone and don't even remember it happening at all..... spending all my dollars. SO new goal: find my Halifax limit, learn how much i can drink here and still remember how good my night was... kinda important.
Also goal drink more pimp juice. |
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| overreaction |
[Aug. 25th, 2008|09:05 am] |
so i didn't ruin my life, yet...... totally......i've only slighty ruined it so far, but at least i still get 1 more week of awesomeness and hopefully a long time of awesomeness at my new job at FABRICVILLE 40 hours a weeek biatches, they love me there! after my first day yesterday everyone was stoked about me they kept saying i was on the ball.... and talking about me when i was slightly out of ear shot... or so they thought lol, haha I cannot wait HUGE opportunities on the rise for this old gal!
i'll let you know about the other things as they come up
She grew up too fast
Now she's a star
Live the glamour life be treated like a beauty queen
Consume the world all at once just like she always dreamed
See the pyramids, experience ecstasy
Become a piece of meat inferior to Hennessey
Deal with the stress resolve the rest with sharp tools
Escape this place of all the misery and sorrow
Confront death, abandon the world and see tomorrow |
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| on my own |
[Jun. 8th, 2008|10:52 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | five rocks | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | page france | ] |
yeah sweet used ref,
haha
so here i am doing it... being all 21 and shit, I got my own health plan, got into another school, found my own place to live, working on the job thing now... but i FUCKING did it, all by myself too.
I feel so tough right now
Can't wait to get out of Five Islands again... when i'm forced to move back here for any reason it always sucks haha, i love seeing my family but i've been on my own for too long now i cannot stand living under their lives anymore.
I've been sewing like every spare minute I have, everyone keep your eyes open for my clothes soon hopefully,i'll keep updated on more details as i can but it should be really radical when it all goes down.
My apartment is going to be huge PIMPIN, i'll have so much room to get my sewing on, and there might actually be room for all my shoes and clothes haha,
I should be moving around the 20th if all goes well.... GAHHH excited.... So far Sobey's is the only one who's called me back... so fingers crossed
GAHHHH
It's time to pay the piper. He's gonna reap what he sowed, and it sure ain't corn. Or wheat. |
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| you'll forget about me after i've been gone.... |
[Apr. 23rd, 2008|07:22 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | toronto | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
I miss you already, and you left your sweater here......... even tho you'll never read this. I had to spell it out for you.
and it reads :
THANK YOU!
So everyone is gone.... and i'm the next one.... I'll be back in Five Islands on Sunday April 27th
CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm stoked but scared and every other feeling you can imagine all rolled up into one.... it's pretty intense....
my back will remain this way until i return to Toronto.... so i guess it's not goodbye.... just so long....
now he's one of us plays the tamborine, will you wait for us will you stay for us, will you grace us all,
your a wrecking ball with a heart of gold, will we become the happy ending...... |
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| 43 days |
[Mar. 14th, 2008|10:52 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ricky van shelton | ] |
that is the exact amount until i am leaving this cursed school
i doubt i'll get into school right from here.... but i'm not worried about it. I'm figuring i might take some other courses on my wayside, possibly university english.... on account of i cannot bring myself to go to school here anymore...
this place has stolen what should have been the best 2 years of my life....I met a ton of amazing people, saw a ton of amazing shows.... and pretty much wanted to die everyday hahaha seriously.... if anyone you know wants to go to fashion school.... tell them not to!
IT WILL KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now good things:
my back is near done, all i have left is the drop shadow... and it looks AMAZING, i'm sorry i'm not trying to sound conceited.... but it's so fucking bad ass! i don't get to see it as much but when i saw a picture of it i lost it.... i cannot believe after all this time it's finally near completion.... and it's crazy how awesome i feel now
tattoo is not as bad ass as going to see Iron Maiden this weekend tho.... hahaha, Dave's 19th was this monday so we'll be partying it up... and i'll be doing the homework i've been avoiding. hang over homework....woot!
that is all..... |
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| I'm guilty for my sins this time, |
[Feb. 29th, 2008|01:16 pm] |
sooooooooooooo...
April 19th I will be packed and in a truck on my way to Nova Scotia
INTENSE!!!!!!
I'm on reading week right now which is cool, but lame as well because i have sooo much homework to do all the time, and of course i'm terrible at doing it. BUT I did some actual sewing for me.... and it rules, I'm serious about selling my shizzzz when i get home.
I cannot wait to see my mom, and my Sister in law might be in Toronto within the next bit, so *fingers crossed* sweet hanging out with her,
I got my 2nd sitting done on my back yesterday, so I have the black and grey done on one wing of my body, I'M SO EXCITED, i should have 1 more 2 hour sitting for the 2nd wing..... which almost killed me this time i swear, outline painful but alright... this time... near DEATH!!!!!!! so in a week or so i'll go back for 2 more hours then wait and i should only have like a 1 hour appointment or so since it'll just be the drop shadow on the outside of the wings, but hell they're gunna look amazing.
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| mixed as well as your drink |
[Jan. 28th, 2008|12:22 pm] |
My dog is dead..... my family had him put down cause he was like 17 years old, i've had him my whole life... Sparky is his name, we found him on the street and took him in......I miss him already, it's tough being away and having things happen because you never know what's truly going on..... but you always want to believe them... "everything will be okay"
I've been playing the balancing act i always play.... i'm working and doing this hellish school program all at once, i basically never sleep... i need to be doing homework at that time....
i might actually get to go see Juno this week... i'm really crossing my fingers on that one. I have been doing pretty good at not spending my money on fun things, i've only been buying school stuff this pay.. and i'm still broke sadly... but at least i'm not dead... like everyone else seems to be doing, i'm most upset about Renfro i think tho.. i mean when you mention his name some people don't even know who he is.... and i feel soooo bad for them never knowing his amazingness....... AKA BULLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!frig that movie rules
alright so yeah things right now are fairly not KABLAMO!!!!!!!!! however thrice good things shall happen once i get one more bad thing.....
trust me i won't hold my breath hahah |
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| the long road home.... |
[Jan. 7th, 2008|12:17 am] |
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| | crazy | ] |
You'll always be my Bob Dylan......... and i'm Edie Sedgwick....
And finally it all makes sense.... |
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| 21 and feeling fine |
[Dec. 25th, 2007|06:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Five Islands | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none shall pass | ] |
so far this turning 21 things has been a good turn around... at first i was like.... this sucks... i'm old, and cynical etc etc
but after an interesting turn of events, some sweet hangouts and a ton of pie and love from my mom
I FEEL AWESOME!
sewing - A
knitwear- B+
design- B
pattern making - A
textiles - B+
i had a great christmas and am actually looking foreward to moving home 100% now...
After all, there is nothing real outside our perception of reality, is there? |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 2nd, 2007|02:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drunk | ] |
i will be 21 in 1 week
last night i went to see Miclordz and sauce funky (John Rodgers' band) it was awesome i hung out with John. Chris and Will all night, drank way too many beers and ended up rapping on stage hahaha
Luckily Aimee went with me.... or i might not have made it home.. haha
we took the drunk bus home and i sang oldies with some bum who kept talking about how much his dog "loves" him.
amazing night....
This time of year is always so shitty.....not a sober breath from Thurs. December 6th till Monday December 10th.
i'm all for whatever gets you through the night |
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| sometimes the past seems way to present |
[Nov. 13th, 2007|11:51 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | TO | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | discount - half fiction | ] |
as my sewing teacher would say i am drunk driving.
1. I cannot believe it is November... thank GOD i'm so busy this year time is flying by because I hate this school.
2. I am 100% without a doubt moving home in April, moving to Halifax and if i don't get into full time school i'll take it part time instead, and work full time.... I really don't care i mean i know a lot of stuff as it is and if i have to live in Halifax for 3 years i can deal with that at least i can see my family.
3.I am proud of myself.... yeah that's right... i last night made just about the cutest jacket ever, it's just the test run of the pattern i made... but it is AMAZING! best thing i've ever done by far!
4. There is a girl here from Halifax and i think we might go see Risky business haha they're playing out here in December.
5. It's almost my 21st birthday....i'm scared...
it's all about numbing the senses, never getting visibly upset. well, maybe you're right. maybe it's like this everywhere but that's no reason not to leave, just go anywhere, just get out of here. you've been here too long. we don't mind these awful uniforms. we smile when they touch us in the back room. we laugh at their sick jokes and curse them under our breaths...act like we don't know they're standing too close, but any close is too close. always saying, "that one was a close call." awake, and pacing. preoccupied. fuzzy feeling inside. blowing smoke and dodging looks and cursing jokes. well i am visibly upset. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 1st, 2007|12:23 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
2 best pictures from the concert... it's so funny cause when you look at Claudio on stage sometimes he just looks so normal... and then you see him do something like this^^^^^ and your like oh yeah.... that's why he's such a big deal. These little girls at the show kept trying to get me to throw my bra on the stage... and i had to protect them from this one very drunk Clutch fan haha i had lost all the people i came with and while looking for them ended up at the front protecting these lame girls... but it was worth to have such a sweet view.
I got a package in the mail from my dad too... it's a jewlery box and it has this really nice poem about how proud they are to have a daughter like me... and a hand written note from my dad inside too.... I bawled! hell it makes me cry typing this right now. I miss them a lot this year, more so then last year i guess casue everything was so new, and now i'm such a city girl hahha
school still sucks.... and all else is the same. |
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| No world for tomorrow... |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|08:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Rez | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | on the brink- coheed and cambria | ] |
New Coheed album rocks my ass off! favorite songs after 1st listen = Feathers, The running free, Mother superior, radio bye bye.... i dunno... maybe.. i need like 16 more hours to listen to it to decide...
seeing them on monday is going to be amazing... just under a week after the new release.
GAHHH getting excited for Halloween, making an angel costume.... cliche i know but it'll be nice i think.
I've been insane with school which is really lame, but i've been trying to keep myself at least relaxed once a week. Going out with Nikki tomorrow...I hardly ever get to see her even tho we're so close.. it's really sad. December is comming up which means i need to get my stuff ready for applying to DAL... SCARY!!!!!!!
I've been really ill lately too, it's reading week right now so i have no classes all week but i still have a ton of homework of course haha. i really wanted to get some stuff made for other people this week too so hopefully i can...
I feel like i'm ready... for amazing things to happen.. i wanna be swept off my feet... bring on the world...
Cause you're going home
You're running free
As only you would be if you never owed them anything
And now you've found your way out
In the trust you've seen your path on home
Spend your time well before you go |
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| you and me are different girl, we don't even need wings to fly |
[Oct. 6th, 2007|10:30 am] |
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| | blank | ] |
so........ i'm awesome! and finally did something i've been talking about for the past 5-7 years! GOOOOOOO ME! and it is sooooo grood! i mean good....good and great hahah
Toronto has been Torontoey... to say the least, I saw We are Scientists.... which was awesome!
a broadway show... for free no less haha,
The hives... even tho i never really liked them Aimee does so i went with her to be a good friend haha and i must say.... entertaining for sure...
AND! on sunday is TED LEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT!!!
Seeing HOLY FUCK for the 2nd time in Toronto on the 20th! so basically once a month i go see holyfuck i guess haha
AND ON THE 29th i'm seeing clutch, fall of troy and coheed..... 7 days after their new album comes out....should be very radical.
School once again is killing me..... it's really insane this year... i wish i was just at DAL and with people i know.... not people that pretend to know me. The teachers are all assholes and crazy, but whatever i'm doing it.... and that is what is important.. 1 more year baby!
did some much needed shopping today, bought some radical gear from AA and a couple cd's, also a ton of fabric... since my design teacher made me re-do the entire thing! YAY
so it's the day after my mom's birthday where everyone celebrated without me... and thanksgiving weekend is being spent with me doing homework... YAY
and as much as i complain i'm doing a lot better socially this year, as i say i've fell off my bike more then twice but it's time to ride again.... okay maybe that was sage francis and not me.... but still relevant as heck!
Call me up, and thats all I need,
Bring your loving, smiling, face over.
I feel like, getting it right,
Overnight, start over,
I thought playing that loving game would never be simple again
But you're staying overnight,
So maybe I'm doing something right.
You can feel it in the trees
I feel it by degrees
Feel it fresh and new
The sun will rise up, and you'll be in Freedom
So much freer than you were before |
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| i've got the power! |
[Sep. 1st, 2007|09:41 am] |
FINALLY hahaha,
we had no power here for the past way too long but now it is finally fixed, so jon, cory and me watched fight club on cory's laptop, which was still pretty sweet tho.
I won and ipod..... kinda excited.. except cory told me i can't have linuex on it or something.... well i'm terribly disapointed about that... GOD! what good is it if i can;t watch teeny tiny videos on my ipod.
So yeah luckily we had other plans then to hang out here cause that would've sucked if we didn't. We went to the Neil Hamburger show... which was really friggin hilarious! I ordered my tickets for we are scientists... but cause i got here sooo late... i had to pay like $11 for shipping.... CRAPPY! or what? some good bands around this year, so far all the shows i wanna see tho are right at the beginning of October.. which is not so sweet hopefully no huge projects at that time haha.
i'm excited to start school i guess... I just hope i'm ready and can do this.... GAHH
i need to unpack so.... Later days |
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| 5 days away |
[Aug. 25th, 2007|07:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | summer | ] |
Well Nova Scotia has turned me brown and stole all my hair, time to ship me out now i guess. I'll be back at Christmas and then i'll be moving to Halifax in April.
Hung out with the other two legs of the tripod, we saw Superbad and were awesome....you know the usual things we do.
really into this show holly turned me onto called flight of the conchords, it's basically amazing. gangster rap battle...
and....... best of all my t-shirt came, and me and Aimee are gunna live together this year! SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rafe is moving home so i hope i get to see him before i leave.....
Goodbye cruel world! |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 7th, 2007|07:47 am] |
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I almost suffocated in the shower today. I was thinking about you and how romantic it would be to write you a poem, about how I would give up writing poems forever just to be with you......... |
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| 2 alone's don't make for togetherness.... |
[Aug. 6th, 2007|10:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
not a sober breath was not a good idea.... evolve was... well i'm not really sure how i feel about the whole thing. Glad i got to see my friends before i leave tho, it's hard to believe how fast time flys.... and how much can change... and how little sometimes... FUCK i dunno just get me out of here... Land of talk sept. 4th, back to TO on the 30th.... somewhere i belong... let's pretend we don't exisit
who knew ignoring it wouldn't work?
The more things change the more I stay the same.... how I wish I could change.... |
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